Christian-ish: Part 4
Exodus 34:6-7, Isaiah 55:8-9, Psalm 63:1, 3, 6-8
SERMON TRANSCRIPT
We are really just praying that this series has been good for you, it's been good for us as pastors, and by good I mean I hope and pray that God is using it to reveal things to you, reveal areas of your life that might need to be surrendered over to Him and that we could be made more like Him. So that's what I mean. I hope the series has been good for you, I hope it's been challenging in the best of ways.
So I want to start off by telling you a quick story about myself. When I was in junior high, I transferred from one very, very small private school to a bigger private school, and it felt huge to me. I was very nervous, but it felt like going, I hadn't been to public school and it felt like I was going to this big thing. One because I got to take a bus for the first time in my life, I got to take a bus to school and I was like, this is legit, I'm now going to a legit school, I'm riding a bus, this is awesome. And the other thing that I loved was that they had vending machines. I'd never had a vending machine at my school before, and then I was like, man, every day I get the opportunity to buy whatever I want. And there were two, there was one for drinks, one for snacks, and I just thought, man, I've made it, this is the best. And I remember, so you guys maybe know then, having the good of that, of being able to buy whatever I want, but also you have these experiences where you put in your money, 50 cents, 75 cents, you put in your snack, whatever you want, and then you wait for the little thing to turn and it to come out towards you and to fall down. You also know sometimes when that doesn't happen. And the thing turns and it just stops, or it's like nothing happens, you're just sitting there feeling robbed, you're like, what just, what? Where's my food? Where, I just put in money? This is the worst. And for a junior high student, that can be like, that's the end of the day. I'm ready to go home. This was what I was looking forward to, and now I get nothing.
I share all that. Because sometimes we treat our relationship with God as if he were a vending machine. We put in what we think is good, something good from us, what he wants, expecting something in return, something like blessings, provision, whatever it is. And so maybe it's like, hey, God, I've been attending church, or I've been praying, I've been doing my devotional time, I've been tithing, acts of service, and we come to expect this transactional faith. Okay, God, here's my payment. Now please answer my prayer. Bless me. Give me what I want. It's like we're ordering from God, right? We do all those things, and we're like, all right, God, C12, more money, please. Or B2, can I get that new job? Or if you're a student, and I know because I've prayed these prayers of students, like D7, can help me pass that test. I haven't studied, but God, I was going to church all this month, so I think this should equal an A. Now, say what may seem obvious at this point, that God doesn't work this way.
This is not how faith is. It's not some kind of contract. We may not realize it, but we may be living with a cause and effect faith. If I do my part, God has to do His. Maybe you've thought this in the inverse situation, when something bad happens, and you're going through a struggle, and you're like, God, is this because I broke my side of the contract? Is it because I didn't go to church this Sunday, and now I'm dealing with this? Or is it because I haven't been praying to you? That's still a cause and effect relationship with God. And we think, oh, God's holding me to that thing where I let him down, and so now He's not blessing me anymore. We can live with a faith where we are the ones in focus. We are the ones in charge. And really, we think we're on equal standing with God. I do my part, and equally across the way, He does His part. Subconsciously, we can have these thoughts that when that doesn't happen, when God doesn't show up or answer the prayer that we prayed, we can think, God has failed me. I'm disappointed by God. God let me down because He didn't do this, this, and this. And when we voice that out loud, it sounds maybe a bit obnoxious, outlandish, but maybe it's also ringing true for some of us. To be like, oh, you know what, I have prayed that, or I have thought that before. In our faith, we need to recognize that, one, we are not equal with God. And two, if we don't understand what's happening or why something isn't happening, that's for us to find out for what God is doing. Not to be disappointed in God because He didn't do what we deemed best, what we deemed necessary, what we deemed right. If we don't address this and we leave this kind of faith unchecked, it can lead to us feeling betrayed by God, frustrated by God, hurt by God.
And we want to expose this lie today, a lie that keeps us from real faith, that this false faith, a transactional faith, is dangerous. It's an incomplete faith because it leaves us with an inflated view of ourselves, and it distorts how we view God. We lower Him down to be on our level. And after enough disappointment and hurt and frustration, the danger is that people will, with that entitled view of their selves, will just walk away from God. God hasn't been doing what I want. This isn't worth it anymore. This faith that I bought into, that I invested in, that I thought I was doing all these things, I'm not getting out of it what I deserve, what I'm entitled to. And people can just walk away from the faith. So we've got to be careful and vigilant to cultivate and grow a biblical faith in God. So I want to look today at God's Word to see how faith in God, our relationship with God, what it was intended to look like. If you guys would pray with me one more time as we continue in our service. Gracious Father, since our whole salvation depends on true understanding of Your Holy Word, grant that our hearts, freed from worldly affairs, may hear and understand Your Holy Word with all diligence and faith, so that we may rightly discern Your gracious will, cherish it, and live by it with all earnestness, to Your praise and honor through our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
That was a prayer by a theologian called Martin Bueser who wrote that. And I love it, and I wanted to pray it today with all of you because it emphasizes that to better understand God and to have a true faith in Him, we need God. We don't come up with that on our own and just say, "God, I'll figure out my side, you do Your side." No, we need God to do our part too. And we need to understand His Word to understand Him and to have a true faith. So let's look at the Bible. When we look at the Bible, we have a bunch of... Life Church has given us a bunch of definitions, and I think they're helpful.
So I wanna share with us today true biblical faith. Do we have a definition for true biblical faith? It's about giving or about knowing and loving God for who He is, not just what He does. There it is. Knowing and loving God for who He is, not just what He does. We're gonna get to who He is in a little bit, but that's so important. I think so often we just do it for what He does. And sometimes that's how we come to faith, we've seen God work, we've seen what He can do, and so that draws us in, and that's good, but we can't stay there. That's drawing a sense that we get to know Him, and we fall in love with Him, and we get, "God, I love you for who you are, not just what you do." We have our Christian-ish definition, right, having a half-hearted faith, wearing the label of Christianity without truly following Jesus. This is what we're hitting week after week of, "We do not want to be Christian-ish." Those who are Christian-ish often embrace and live with a transactional faith, which is a distorted belief that turns our relationship with God into a contract, believing that if we do our part, God is obligated to do His. I just want to just look at that, read that again, and take a moment to see if that's where you're at in your faith right now. Distorted belief that turns our relationship with God into a contract, believing that if we do our part, God has to do His. And I don't want to heap shame on you if you're looking at this definition and you're realizing that you've been living with a transactional faith, because I want to say, I've struggled with this too, I still do at times, and we are not alone. If you're in this room and you're saying, "Yes, this is a struggle of mine. I tend to think that God ought to do something. I expect Him to do something." You are not alone. We are not alone. Throughout history, there have been many with transactional faith problems, and actually we have a lot of examples in the Bible of people who have expected something of God.
So I just want to take a moment to go through some of these biblical examples. Exodus 16, 3 talks about this moment where Israel has been freed from Egypt. They were in slavery, right? I want to emphasize how bad they were in slavery. It was terrible. They were playing with God, crying out to God, "Rescue us." God rescues them, and they're out in the desert. Desert is hard. It's very hard. They're free, but they're in the desert. And they say to God, "If only we had died by the Lord's hand in Egypt, there we sat around pots of meat and ate food all we wanted. But you have brought us out," talking to God, "into the desert to starve this entire assembly to death." So you can get the tone of this obligation. They feel like, "God, we followed you out here." And He told them, "I'm bringing you to a place. You're on the way. You're in the journey. You're not there yet. I'm bringing you there." And they were already like, "You know what? Bring us back to slavery. This is terrible. God, you're not meeting. You're not meeting." Transactional faith.
If we go later on in the Bible in Jonah, the story of Jonah is God calls Jonah to go preach to a city, Nineveh. Nineveh is one of the worst cities on earth, absolutely terrible. And Jonah's like, "I don't get this mission. God, I think I know you. I don't understand this." He doesn't want to go, and he fights it. But then God says, "Look, I'm going to have you preach, and if they don't do, then if they don't repent, I'm going to destroy it. If they do repent, but if they repent, I'm not going to destroy them. I'm going to forgive them. If not, I'm going to destroy them." And Jonah's like, "Great. You might destroy them. I'm in." Shows a lot about Jonah's heart there. Not a great moment for the prophet. He goes. He preaches. One of the worst messages ever, because it's just like, "God's about to come." And miraculously, they believe. They're like, "Oh, my goodness. Really?" That really messes with Jonah. And he says in chapter 4, verse 1 through 3, he says, "After God forgave, Jonah says, 'This is very wrong.' And he became angry. He prayed to God, 'Isn't this what I said, Lord? While I was still at home, I tried to foretell this. I knew that you were a gracious and compassionate God, slow to anger, abounding in love, a God who relents from sending calamity. Now, God, take my life away, for it is better for me to die.'" So he has this very weird moment. He's very petty. He's just like, "God, I can't stand this. Just take me now. I'd rather I die than see these people be forgiven." Again, that's like wild from Jonah. But he has these expectations, and God didn't meet them.
Think of the story in the New Testament of Lazarus. And Lazarus is sick, and Jesus gets word. Jesus and Lazarus are very tight, and Jesus gets word. But it takes three days for Jesus to get there, and in that time, Lazarus has died. And Martha, in John 11 21, says, "Lord," Martha said to Jesus, "if you had been there, my brother would not have died." Now we look at Martha, and we praise her for the faith that she had, that she knew what Jesus could do. But we also hear an underlying tone of, "I kind of expected you to be here, Jesus. I kind of thought you would have done something to make his death not happen." Last one, prodigal son. You guys are maybe familiar with the story of the prodigal son. His father has two sons. The youngest one wants his inheritance now, and that is a terrible situation. We hear that today, and we're like, "Okay." He just wants a forward on his, an advance on his inheritance. In that time, it was saying, "Dad, I wish you were dead. I want my money now." Father gives it to him. He goes and takes his money and spends it on all the worldly pleasures, wastes it away, and ends up living with the pigs. And he sits there, and he has a moment of clarity. He says, "My life would have been better even just as a servant at my father's house than to stay here and live with the pigs." So he goes back, and before he can even get a word out, his father runs to him, hugs him, forgives him, and says, "I'm so glad that you are home." That's the story that we're very familiar with. What is often forgotten is that there was an older brother who stayed with the father the whole time, and he doesn't like that this happened. He sees the rejoicing of the younger son over the younger son. And he says in Luke 15:29, he answered his father, "Look, all these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. You never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you killed the fattened calf for him." I mean, that's some heavy fighting words from that older brother who is saying, "This is not fair, Dad. I've been here loyal to you this entire time, and I got nothing." Well, really, he got the blessing of living in his father's house the whole time, but he doesn't think it's fair.
And in all these examples, Old Testament to New Testament, is a thought that I bet that we have had, which is when something happens not aligned with what we think should have happened or what God should have done, is the thought, "God, I thought we had a deal. What's up? What are you doing?" Maybe some of you are having that conversation with God about something in your life right now. And it's not uncommon, even for those who have been walking with God for years, that the more we seek Him, the more we obey Him, the more we serve Him, to expect a little preferential treatment. Right? We're all sitting there like, "Yeah, yeah, totally. Like the more years I put in with God, the more blessing I should get from God." We treat it like a punch card from a coffee shop, like, "God, look at all these 10 things I've done. Look at all the longevity I've done. And now I would like to redeem it for an answered prayer of just a blank check pretty much, whatever I want, God. But look, look at the 10 holes. All done. I've been here long enough with you." And that thought isn't always overtly loud in our minds or our hearts, the fact that we are viewing our relationship with God as a contract or transactional. It can start really small. It can start with just a feeling of hope. Like, "God, I've been walking with you for a long time now or for a while, or I've kind of given this area of my life over to you. I hope that this blesses me in some way." And I don't think that's wrong. But that hope can grow into expectation.
And then what once was a subtle thought now has roots and can be a part of our theology and how we live out our faith. We do this and this for God because I expect God is going to do something that I want down the road. And just like that, we have an unhealthy and dangerous theology that we live by. If we serve God, He owes us. Maybe you've had prayers like this recently. "God, why didn't you answer my prayer, God? I asked for this and I've been doing really good. I'm going to church every Sunday and tithing." Maybe you prayed a prayer. "God, I raised my kids right. They went to church. They went to youth group. Why did they walk away from you?" Maybe it's, "God, I've been tithing. I've been worshiping you with my money. Why am I still paycheck to paycheck? Why am I still struggling to make ends meet?" Maybe it's, "God, I've remained pure. I'm living in a way that honors you with my body and my relationships. Why am I not married yet?" Whatever your prayers have been, can you hear the underlying expectations that we have on God in those prayers? Can you recognize the tone of entitlements that we have towards God? And let me be clear. I'm not saying that we shouldn't expect for God to answer. That we can know. God does hear us and He will respond. It's just when we put God in a corner and say, "You can only do one thing. God, this is exactly what I need you to do. And if you don't do it, well, now we got problems." And again, when I say that out loud, I don't think it's something that we would say, "Yeah, yeah, that's how I view God." But the way we pray can definitely say, "That's how we view God, is we expect one thing. It's the thing that I want. And if God doesn't give it to me, I'm throwing a fit. Sounds like my toddler.”
We can have that kind of faith. You see, true faith is not contractual. It is relational. It's about knowing and loving God for who He is, not just what He does. Got this prayer from Life.Church and I think it's really helpful for us. And maybe this is the prayer that's going to help us this week with our transactional faith. It says, "God, help me to know you and love you, not just for what you do, but for who you are." Again, we can love God for what He does. We should love God for what He does, but that can't be the only thing. Because there will be times when we just don't see God necessarily. There'll be days where it's like, "God, I haven't really seen what you're doing." And that doesn't mean that our love can dry up. We need to know who He is. God, help me to know you and to love you, not just for what you do, but for who you are. It's a simple prayer, but man, it can have such a huge impact on our faith. True faith is less about us and more about God. This doesn't come naturally to us. It means we have to be intentional, just as John the Baptist, when he said, "He must become greater, I must become less." That's John 3:30. John the Baptist is realizing the role that he's going to have to become less so that Jesus can become more. Maybe the phrase that you've heard is, "God must increase and I must decrease." Sometimes we hear that and we think, "Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know that I need to have more of God in my life." We forget the important aspect that we must decrease. We just think, "Oh, God just increased in my life. I need more of God.”
We forget the part that we need to become less in our lives and God needs to become more. So one of the differences between a biblical faith and a transactional faith that treats a relationship with God like a contract. A contract focuses on what we get out of it. We are at the center of our relationship with God and it has a way of making us feel like we are on equal standing with God. It's not true. Pastor Lauren just preached a couple of weeks ago on covenantal relationship with God, speaking about unconditional promises and conditional blessings. So I want to reiterate, God loves us no matter what. That is true. No matter how we're living, whether we're following him or we're not, he loves us and he blesses our obedience. We don't obey for the blessing. That's a twisted motivation, right? See how easy it is to corrupt our relationship with God? All of a sudden we can just have a rotten motivation in our heart to say, "Oh, there's blessing? I want that." And all of a sudden now we are at the center and we are looking to like, "Gimme, gimme, gimme. God, I will do this. I will obey because I'm getting something out of it." And you may be wondering, "Okay, being blessed by God upon my obedience, that seems transactional, contractual." And I would say it's not. It's less that it's more covenantal and relational. We are blessed in our obedience to God because obedience means walking with him.
And I've said this last week, I'll say it again. He is the greatest gift in life. He is the greatest blessing. And when we walk with him and live the way that he intended us to live, there is blessing in that. We are experiencing a life the way that it's meant to. That in itself is a blessing. I think understanding that and the way that that blessing means, we think of it as like, "Oh, if I walk with him, I'm gonna get stuff. I'm gonna get more money. I'm gonna have a healthy life. I'm gonna get whatever I want." No, the blessing of walking with God is that he's with us. He is the blessing. And understanding that helps us to break down this transactional and kind of see how it's not a true faith and how true faith is more relational. Another point that helps us is a contract is transactional, temporary, and enforceable by law. A covenant is relational, eternal, and sustained by love. A contract in its essence is transactional. It's based upon protecting yourself. It exists because by default, there's a level of mistrust between the two parties. And you're just trying to shore up for anything that could happen. And we leave room for the fact that something could go wrong.
So I'll give you an example. Contract with rental homes, right? Neither side know each other. You have the people who own the home or the property manager, and you have the tenant. The rental manager owner is responsible to provide a livable space up to certain standards. You have the renter who agrees to pay a certain price and keep it at certain standards, and they drop a contract so that both parties begin a transactional relationship, agreement. But the reality is that it's temporary, it's transactional, and it can be enforced by law. Let me give you an example of a relational agreement that's very different. Growing up, we had, in a church that my family went to, we had this one family who was on the... Fallen hard times, and they were kind of... People in the church were opening up their homes for their whole family to stay with them for, you know, just as you get back on your feet, come live with us. So my parents were very gracious, and they invited this family in and their kids. It was not rent. It was just a relational thing sustained by love. It wasn't eternal. They didn't stay with us forever. But you see the difference. Think of your relationship with friends. You don't enter a friendship with a contract. If you do... It was weird. I don't know. I've never seen that before. But you don't have a paper, and you're like, "Hey, we're both gonna sign this, and we're agreeing to a certain amount of hours that we must spend with each other every week." There's no court you go to to be like, "They did not go to my birthday dinner, and I want to end it. This is the break of our contract." There's no official that you have to go to to say, "Hey, by the way, we're no longer friends. I need to make sure that everyone knows." It doesn't exist.
It's a different kind of relationship. Think of your relationship with God. It should be more like that, right? As a friendship. It's relational, it's eternal, and it's sustained by love. God loves us with a relational, unconditional, covenantal love for eternity. Even when we don't hold up our end, when we fail, when we turn away from God, or like we talked about last week, when we start pursuing idols, He still loves us. He holds onto us and upholds the covenant. And Timothy 2 says, "If we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot disown Himself." I love that. I love that it's saying that we are going to fail. There are moments where we will not exercise any faith in God, and He doesn't respond in kind. No, He still loves us and holds onto us because it's an unconditional, covenantal, relational relationship. I share this today because knowing this, again, can help free us from the thought of a false faith. The transactional faith knowing that God loves us, and that we should love Him, not just for what He does, but for who He is. Now, I want to get to who He is, because I said this last week, if we better understood God, we'd be more likely to follow Him and keep Him in the number one chair.
But I really want to spend a little bit of today with who He is. We have to understand who He is. That point is just missed if you're like, "Great, I got to love Him for who He is." I don't know who He is. Who is God? Well, I love this question. I love pointing to one passage in Scripture to answer who God is. It's a story of Moses on the mountain. Moses, at this time, had never seen God. He's heard from God, the burning bush, and the voice that came from the burning bush, and he's seen God work some incredible miracles. He's seen the evidence of God. He's seen God as He's led the Israelite people in the pillar of fire by day, or cloud by day and fire by night, leading the people through the wilderness. And they're out in the wilderness, and God is doing His thing where He's like, "All right, they're all gathered. Moses, come up to the top of the mountain. I'm going to give you some instruction as the leader to help Israel be a nation, to be my nation." So Moses goes up to the mountain. It's just him and God. And Moses, after some conversation, is like, "God, can I see you?" And it seems like a simple request, but it's Moses' way of saying, "I just want to know you more. I've heard you. I've heard your voice. I've seen evidence of you, and you in the form of fire and cloud. But can I see you?" And God says, "No." He's like, "Nope, you can't." And we say, "Oh, God, why don't you just..." Because God says, "You would die. If I were to show you my full glory, you can't handle it. It's too much for you." But he says to Moses, "Why don't you hide yourself in the cleft of the mountain? And I'm going to pass by really quick." I don't know what that looks like. I just think I would love to have seen and be there for this moment. But he's trying to meet Moses where he's at, right? He's like, "I can't show you everything, but let me just pass by really quick.”
If you ever want to read this, this is Exodus 33 and 34, the end of 33 into 34. So he's hiding in the cleft and Exodus 34, 6 through 7 says, "And he passed in front of Moses proclaiming, 'The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands and forgiving wickedness, rebellion and sin, that he does not leave the guilty unpunished. He punishes the children and their children for the sin of the parents of the third and fourth generation.'" Moses wanted to know who God was, and God in his way answered and said, "This is who I am." Oh, can we bring that back? "Compassionate, gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, forgiving wickedness and rebellion and sin, and just." This is, by the way, the most quoted scripture by scripture. What I mean by that is throughout scripture, they constantly reference us. We just read this in Jonah. Jonah was like, "I knew you were this God, and I didn't like it.”
But he's saying all these great things that God says about himself. This is who God is. He's introducing himself to Moses. He said, "You want to know me? Here's who I am." And this is why God has given us his word. All of your Bible, all of this points to who God is. You want to know who God is? This is, I would say, start here. This is a great place to start. But you read all of scripture, you're going to find out more and more about God. It's to help us know who he is and to fall in love with him and say, "Great. Now that I know you more and I want to know you more, God, let me go to your word and find out who you are." If you were to read in order, scripture, you learn, oh, you start at the beginning, "Oh, God, I'm going to learn. God is a creator. He created everything." You read through Israel, "Oh, God is a rescuer. He rescued his people." You go through the prophets and you learn, "Oh, God is more powerful than any other God, anything else in the world." You read through David and Solomon, you say, "Oh, God is the King of Kings. Even the best kings of David and Solomon, they pale in comparison to God. Oh, I learned that he's just. I learned that he is a prophet and priest. I learned that God gives himself through Jesus to his people, that he loves us and he never fails and his words are true and that he is the only way to heaven and that he is above all else.”
You read scripture, you learn that and so much more about who God is. And when we learn who God is, we then learn who we are. In light of him, we understand better our position. And the words from Isaiah ring all the more true. Isaiah 55:8-9 says, "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither your ways are my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Oh, this is humbling. We're talking about praying and not getting what we want. And God says this, "Look, you don't get it and that's okay. I'm doing things. I am at work, but I'm up here and you don't see everything that's up here and it's not meant for you to." We need to remember this. We are not on equal ground with God and our relationship with him is not transactional. And as we covered last week, as we know this more and we live in this truth, trusting God every moment of every day, our relationship with God becomes less transactional and more relational.
David is someone in the Bible who embodies this covenantal relationship with God. He repeatedly writes in the Psalms a line that we now sing at times, "God, you are my God." And he doesn't treat God like a vending machine. "God, you are my God. I need your prayers. I need your blessing. I need your provision." No, he writes, Psalm 63:1, "You are my God. You God are my God and earnestly I seek you. I thirst for you. My whole being longs for you in dry and parched land where there is no water because your love is better than life. My lips will glorify you. On my bed I remember you. I think of you through the watches of the night because you are my help. I sing in the shadow of your wings. I cling to you, your right hand upholds me." This is a man who knows and lives in the truth, who has tasted and seen the goodness of God and understands that God is the best thing there is. Better than his own provision and blessing is the person of God himself who is with us. It really highlights how our relationship with God should be, not transactional, but deeply intimate and personal and relational. So how do we know? How do we know if we have a transactional faith with God? Well, I got a couple of questions.
And again, like last week, I just encourage you to don't get defensive. You're not answering out loud. This is between you and God. So the first question is, "Do I follow God because of what he does for me or because of who he is?" All right, starting off soft there. Number two, "Do I still trust God when he doesn't answer my prayer the way I wanted or do I feel betrayed?" Okay, now we're getting real. Have you ever felt betrayed by God? Probably yes. And do we still trust him even when we don't get what we want? Number three, "Do I serve God because I love him or because I'm hoping for something in return?" All right, that last one hits hard. There are times. I find myself serving in a way that I'm like, "God, I really hope there's something good at the end of this. I really hope that I get something." And it's, man, that's not the best faith. That's not what God... That's not what the Bible says a faith should look like. But that, I know it's real. From experience, I know it's real that we can be disappointed, frustrated, and feel betrayed by God. I was having a conversation this week with a pastor. We were commiserating on the reality that woven throughout our Western evangelical theology and church practices is a transactional faith. It's everywhere. There's this hope, this wrong hope and motivation that we get something out of it. That's not what the Bible says. Now let me say, we do have good moments. Our hearts can be in the right place. We can love God genuinely and sincerely and worship him with all that we have. That exists, and I know that many of you are in that. That's great, and praise God for that. But it's hard because literally the very next moment you could be struggling with, "God, all right, do I get something now?" That thought just creeps in so easily. And maybe you pray, "God, why haven't you answered my prayers? Why didn't I get that new job? Why hasn't my family member experienced healing yet? Why haven't you fixed my marriage yet? Why am I still struggling to put food on the table?" We're wanting God to do something for us. We're disappointed in unmet expectations. We're feeling frustrated, hurt, or even betrayed. And we ask those questions to God, and we say, "God, why haven't you?" And church, I don't have that answer. I do not know why God hasn't answered your prayer in the way that you wanted besides to say God hears you, he loves you, and his ways are higher than ours. We may not understand, but that doesn't mean that he isn't walking with you. Doesn't mean that he doesn't feel everything that you're feeling. He's hurting alongside you. We just may not know what he's up to.
But I want to encourage you and to warn you, if you're following God just to have your prayers answered, you're missing God's heart. And you're missing the relationship that you could be having with him. Your relationship with him isn't what it needs to be. It's like in Luke 6, when the disciples are following Jesus right after he's fed the 5,000, and that whole crowd follows him. And Jesus turns at a certain point and says, "You guys are just following me for more food. That's all you really want, is more miracle food. You don't know that I'm the Messiah. You don't believe in me." We don't want to be like those disciples. We want to be true disciples abiding in him because we love him and we know him. Yes, we see what he does, but even when we don't, we know who he is. God is not a tool to use, not a means to an end. He's a king that we worship with all of our lives. We do this because God loves us and he is the very best thing there is.
Let's pray. God, thank you for your word, for your truth. And God, we need you. And I pray that you would forgive us for moments where we have a transactional faith, where we come to you and you know our hearts. You can see right through us and know that really we're just wanting something selfishly. God, thank you for the patience and the compassion that you have with us in those moments. God, I pray that you would help grow in us a faith that is true, that is based on who you are. Help us to know you more. And as we fall more in love with you and worship you, God, I pray that we would experience the blessing of walking with you in your presence and we would just come to appreciate your presence in our life. So God, we pray that simple prayer. God, I pray that we would know you and love you not just for what you do, but for who you are. May that be true in our lives today. Amen.









